Am feeling lonely. Am feeling sad being here. It’s still taking me time to adjust to this new place. I guess it’s normal because it has hardly been 3 weeks since I joined. Not even 3 weeks as yet.
I guess I need people around me. I need friends…to talk to, to share with, to laugh with. And in calypto, it seems even more a distant dream. People here are always distant because I’m someone’s wife. I need to get that thought out of their minds and get them comfortable, if I ever want to adjust into this place.
I want to visit US. Stay there. Still 🙂 After my Bangalore stint, it’s no more that painful need to go there, else you’re a loser -kinda feeling. It’s just a wish that I know may never be fulfilled, but I still have. A distant, sweet, childish dream. The beautiful houses, the clean surrounding, making your own home, I guess that’s what always calls me. Maybe I can accomplish all that here too but something is there that won’t change here. Is it the people’s attitude? Is it my own mindset? I don’t know what exactly that is. But, it’s there. Because of which I have to go to US only and won’t get that in India.
I have realized that I like Man-made structures more than God’s stuff. I mean, when I visit a new place, I enjoy visiting man-made museums, buildings, etc much more than parks, nature, etc etc. I can enjoy that part also, but that doesn’t give me as big a high as man-made stuff does. I want to visit new places. I really want to visit new countries. Don’t know if that will ever happen. Right now, it’s a long, distant, impossible dream. Maybe. Some day.
Till then, life is beautiful anyways. 🙂
Take care. Bye