Yesterday was a good day.
As you would know, I had been quite upset since quite some days because of the lack in connection which I feel, or rather receive from Anay. My time spent with him is a major cause of it. I knew I had to make some changes. So, finally, after lot of humble discussions with Tarun, I put my foot down on Monday, and got us to agree that I leave early for home while he can come back later.
Since Anay was not well, I left after lunch on Monday and I left by 5.15 PM on Tuesday.
Anay’s first response on seeing me was common on both the days – “Papa kahan hain? Papa kab aayenge?”
This can be attributed to the fact that we used to come together so he expects him at the same time, as I come. But, it is also true that he enjoys more with his Dad than me.
I don’t blame him.
The way Tarun plays with Anay and gives him the attention and care, whoever got that attention, would be hooked to him. That’s how it started with me too.
But, I will keep trying. I don’t want to be at a competition with his father for the attention of our child, but I definitely want my fair share.
So, yesterday, when I reached home, I played with him in the park. I took him to the society temple. He loves going there because he gets the prasad there 😛 Then, after one more round of swings, we went back home. I knew my MIL would be expecting me to prepare dinner after returning home early. I didn’t want to get into kitchen so soon. I wanted some more time with Anay.
I knew it was my own mind-block. She had no issues with preparing dinner. But, I know that if she has to do it every day, the ego/superiority/equality/whatever will kick in. So, I pawed the grounds carefully and requested her to prepare. I told her I’ll take care of the rest. And, as expected, she didn’t mind! At all! 🙂 🙂
So, here I had. One more hour with my son. I picked up a book that we could read. But, without the Dad’s continuous echos of ‘Wow’ and ‘Aaaaaahhs’, the book sounded so boring. Even to me! I chucked it. No competing on the joking front. His Dad is the best. Hands down!
So, I decided on videos. This was new. Something his Dad had never done. And, what was on my mind since some time. So, I started a video of a story we had often narrated to him at sleep-time. And, he totally loved watching it. He could even relate to the incidents and what would happen next 🙂 Wow! Feels great! 🙂
And, if this was not enough. God decided to go all-out on giving me a good, happy evening. So, finally the kids (Anay’s cousin is visiting) dozed off to sleep, while watching the video. Right at 8.00 PM.
That meant, we had a nice peaceful dinner. I didn’t mind feeding everyone and then cleaning up kitchen and whatever other work there was. I was at peace within me. And, we even got time to go for a walk after dinner. The two of us. Again something that we had not been able to get since quite some time now. 🙂
Thank You God! You’re really a generous one up there! 🙂