Life is crazy busy and there isn’t time even to breathe. 🙂
But, I’m not complaining. It is kind of a sweet pain that makes your body sing every time you remember it. It is like the curse you send out to your child, coz he always forgets his towel and you’ve to rush out of kitchen to give. You don’t mean the curse. You don’t expect him to remember it the next morning. You love to crib about when he’ll grow up. And yet, you know inside, you’ll miss it the day he actually remembers it and you’re no longer needed.
Life has ridiculous ways of becoming meaningful. It doesn’t become life by knowing the deeper meaning of life, its purpose, who’s God, who am I. It becomes meaningful in the journey. The petty things that come your way and you get over, while treading on. Things you can laugh about later. It is the journey that counts. Always did. Always will.
Right now, check out my daily routine.
6 AM – 7:15: Wake up or you can’t send Anay with lunch to school by 7:15. Prepare his breakfast. Prepare your lunch. Pack lunches.
7:20 AM – 8:15 AM: Get ready for office or else, roads will be jammed and it’ll take you an hour to reach office.
9.00 AM – If you’re not in office by this time, you cannot leave by 3.00 PM
3.00 – 3.30 PM – Start back from office quick!
4.00 PM – Rush back home. Prepare dinner. Cut fruits. Prepare veggies for morning.
5.00 – Rush to pick Anay. Pack his stuff for skating.
6.00 – Rush to yoga.
8.00 – Rush back home for dinner
9.00 – Finish Anay’s dinner quick.
10.00 – Put Anay to sleep or won’t wake up in the morning.
10.00 – Fall asleep while putting him to sleep.
The schedule is so packed that even a 15-minute slip is not available. But, I guess when you’re most busy, you’re most productive. Life is at its best.
We went to Chandigarh for a short getaway. I’ve been to the city multiple times. I love the silence there. It is similar to what I liked in US. Silent roads. Peaceful living. And, lot of action in the work-life. As much as one wants. As less, if that’s what you want. As much more, if that’s what you crave.
There are times when I wish to be totally alone. No Tarun, No Anay, No kitchen, No errands to run to. Just me, my cup of tea/coffee, and my book. All day long. All days long, if possible. There are things I wish I could do with Tarun. I know Anay is too small or too restless to be able to go there, or enjoy it. I wonder if we decided to go the family way too soon. What if we had waited a little more while and enjoyed the twosome time a little more. Maybe we would have done lot of those things.
But, I cannot imagine or think of my life without Anay any longer. The times when he’s not with us because he has a party at his daycare, even those small times, as much as a welcome relief it is, he is missed. Even if we think of taking a day off from work and just go for a twosome time out, we start missing him even before we know it. Child has a way of entwining you around his little finger. And as much as you relent it, you love that feeling.
So, life is busy. There are things which I/we miss. But, there will be other times to get back to them. And, they will surely come too, because our li’l one will find a life of his own. And he wouldn’t want to be with us anymore. And then, we’ll have all the time to do whatever we wanted to do twosome. Till then, let me enjoy the precious time I have with my li’l one being li’l. Let me enjoy the nitpicking a li’l more.
Life is good.